Tori Spelling admits her heart is broken

Tori Spelling admits her heart is broken

Tori Spelling admits Dean McDermott broke her heart.

The former 'Beverly Hills 90210' star was ''completely blindsided'' when her husband checked into a rehab facility in January, once it emerged he cheated on her with Emily Goodhand, 28, during a visit to Canada in December.

The forty-year-old actress told Us Weekly magazine: ''He was my soulmate, but he utterly broke my heart.''

The blonde beauty - who has four kids, Liam, seven, Stella, five, Hattie, two, and twenty-month-previous Finn, with Dean, is upset for being criticised for not filing for a divorce and her decision to air their troubles on her upcoming reality series, 'True Tori.'

She said: ''I feel thus judges, however it is not black and white.

''There are children involved. I want to try to figure this out. You do not stop loving somebody because they do one thing extremely bad to you.''

'Chopped Canada' host Dean confessed to having an affair when reports surfaced within the media.

She said: ''He didn't want to urge graphic. I did not want him to. We kept it to the facts. It wasn't concerning feelings. I listened and created certain I didn't show emotion. I did not cry. He did not cry. He sounded remorseful. He sounded like a husband who had gotten caught.''

The actress still hasn't determined if she and Dean can keep together.

She said: ''If I cannot ever let my guard down once more, then there can't continuously be a relationship. I perpetually said, 'If he ever cheated on me I would be out of there!' Whether I can ever trust him once more. That's the massive question.

''But until I figure that out, I do not want the youngsters to grasp any different.''